Life in the Nystrom house has become hectic. I literally can not look anywhere in my house without seeing something baby related. My silverware drawer has even been taken over by binkies! I can not believe our little Nugget is going to arrive any day now...I hope.
But through all of the nesting and preparing I can't help but feel that my marriage has taken a place on the back burner. People say that your life changes with a baby, but really?! I never thought it would change this much. I am spending 24/7 with my little Nugget and I feel like anything I did pre-baby has just gone out the window.
Josh and I use to go all over the town and have random impromptu dates. Now, we are lucky if we even squeeze in a cuddle session. Am I crazy or is baby really getting in the way of romance? Now, just to clarify, I have always had a previous fear that I wouldn't be able to love my husband as well as love my child. There was just no way that I could think of that being possible, but obviously I was wrong because the love I have for my daughter is so much more and different than the love I have for Josh. Any mother reading this knows what I mean.
My fear now is that once baby gets here, our marriage will be null and void. How do we take the steps to ensure that our daughter gets all of the love and nurturing she needs, while still nurturing our marriage?
People told us that our marriage would be a life long journey. They said we have to take the steps together and everything we do henceforth will be done together. Our honeymoon phase has long since passed and I am starting to see the next phase of life together come before us. In a weird way, our roller-coaster journey has just started. Baby Nugget has changed our lives in so many ways already. Change is not a situation in which I have been able to grasp with ease. My outside is calm and composed but my insides are squirming and feel icky. I am selfish and want my hubby time back but I am also elated and want snuggle time with Lils.
Life lessons are being taught in the Nystrom house and this couple is going to conquer them. We are not only going to raise this Nugget together, but we are going to figure out a way to make sure our marriage stays off of the back-burner.
One.Step.At.A.Time.
xo~ Mrs. N.
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