post wedding blues

72 days later and here we are.

The number is quite small. It feels as though just yesterday I was getting butterflies in my tummy and wanted to lose the lettuce that I called lunch to a trash can or porcelain god.

72 days ago I walked down an isle in a place that I will always know as a fairy-tale. It didn't feel like reality and it still doesn't. One thing is certain, we have survived longer than that Kardashian. I guess that helps when you marry your best friend and don't just do it for publicity. Surviving for us is mostly related on our compatibility and likeliness that we can stand being together in the same house forever. We did it for two years before we took the plunge.

So here we are. 72 days later and I am happy. I am content. I am in a funk.
At first, I was in denial but now I am fairly certain I am suffering from post-wedding depression. Where do we go from here? What is in store for us?

We have to make our own future, that much is certain. We have to start being a "We" and not just him or her. Sure, times are going to change a little bit. Times are still the same now though. So, why the funk?

What do girls do after they have their fairy-tale? What comes after the fun and party and laughter and tears? For me, there were more tears. I sat on my couch. I threw a hissy-fit over a burger and some fries. (It's a very long story) I cried in to my husbands arms (mostly because I was PMSing) and told him I am depressed and I don't know what to do. I have planned for 4 months a lavish FUN wedding. Where do we go from here?

I think now is the time where you have to start being a "wife" or "husband". You know, those monotonous chores that no one really wants to do, yeah well you have to get to them. You have to start building up a future together in order to survive in the world. You have to...GULP...Work. You have to keep plugging and chugging and crossing the bridges when you get there.

It is not at all uncommon for a bride to be depressed after the fairy-tale.
How do you know? you ask. I googled it. And google told me that it is perfectly okay. We spent so much time devoted to making everyone happy and now that it is all said and done we don't know what to do with our hands. We have to find our nitch still and we aren't quite sure how. I am not quite sure how! I am almost positive the anxiety and depression can't last forever. I am not usually a "depressed" person. It was a scary feeling to cry and be so unsure of why I was doing it. I was so overwhelmed with everything ALL AT ONCE.

Now that we know the cause, we can move forward. I can take it one day at a time ask God to help me accept the things I cannot change, gain a little courage to change the things I can, and have knowledge in knowing the difference.

I just need to keep surrounding myself with positive people in order for me to continue to be happy. There is no need to be depressed about the future or scared. I have someone by my side now to help me along the way. THAT is what husbands are for! To love and support their wife. duh!

<3
Mrs. Nystrom